\u00e2\u20ac\u0153Do you ever think about joining Ted?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153I think about that a lot. There are so many times I think it would be easier to be with Ted.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s funny…of course it is not funny. But yesterday I was imagining this conversation. The problem is, you don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t think when you die, you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll join him.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153No I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t. I wish I did, but I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t. I have a friend, a fundamentalist, whose little girl died after contracting meningitis. Her friends in the church were so excited thinking of Annie getting a welcoming hug from Jesus.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153Nice dream and if that helps… \u00e2\u20ac\u0153<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153Yes, it helps them cope.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n
But you don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t have that and … \u00e2\u20ac\u0153<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153Sometimes I wonder about reincarnation and seeing Ted in the next life.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153But do you remember Ted from your last life? Do you remember your last life? People make up funny stories from the barest bones of religious beliefs. But isn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t that the problem, Polly? We don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t. Where does that leave us? How does it help us cope? Might be time to change religions.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<\/p>\n
This conversation was as flat as flat as this gray screen. Words without inflections, no attempt to make the other laugh. I had no reply to her last sentence.<\/p>\n
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153You know of everyone that has ever lived and ever thought about death and what happens after we\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re gone. None of them know anymore than we do. Which is nothing.<\/p>\n
Flu Update<\/p>\n
Matthew is still coughing, but well enough to go back to school, except that he didn’t. Diane is tired but has enough energy to make lists of stuff to be done before the Finlays, et al, arrive tomorrow. Susan had a temp for only twenty-four hours, which meant she had sympathy, virus X and not the flu. Of all of us, she looks the brightest. <\/p>\n
I feel like a logging truck rolled over me, slowly.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00e2\u20ac\u0153Do you ever think about joining Ted?\u00e2\u20ac\u009d \u00e2\u20ac\u0153I think about that a lot. There are so many times I think it would be easier to be with Ted.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d \u00e2\u20ac\u0153It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s funny…of course it is not funny. But yesterday I was imagining … Continue reading