Update

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Michael, 

You’ve asked me for an update on my new life.  I am only too happy to share.  You have all shared so much I feel a kinship with you.

The house is sold and as of 12-22 (yes, three days before Christmas) we are residents of Boxborough.  We have a renovated 3 bedroom apartment in an old farm house that feels very much like our old house.  Roomy and abutting conservation land, we have plenty of birds and wildlife as before.  We’ve traded the noise of Rt 2 for a much quieter Rt 111 and are all very thankful.  The walls are painted warm and rich from the sterile white template landlords insist on, and the pictures are hung.  The floors are christened from the many teenage gatherings that happened over the Christmas break.  It felt like “ours” in a very short time.  Everyone who see it says it feels just like our old house, even though the colors are all different.  I guess it’s true what they say; “Home is where the heart is.”

The girls were phenomenal during the last couple of months.  They approached the changes with hesitation and concern, but ultimately accepted the situation and demonstrated once again how mature they are.  Both gave it their all physically and emotionally and I couldn’t be more proud.  They never cease to amaze me with their flexibility.  They are my heroes. 

New challenges are upon me now.  I’ve always been in reactionary roles.  A situation arises – I respond accordingly.  I find myself needing to actually “create proactively” now.  It’s wonderfully scary.  Hilary and Hannah are self sufficient which leaves me with lots of time to myself.  I went from 100 to 20mph in a very short time.  Now I have to find out what I like to do; what

This picture (which I hope I uploaded correctly) hits the nail on the head for me.  The stress of the marriage is over.  The chaos of moving is over.  The holiday frenzy is over.  There is a brilliant, inviting light beckoning just beyond a few obstacles left in the way.  Even if those obstacles are never passed, the view is spectacular from where I stand.  As I sit here smiling at this expressive picture, I feel calm with just a little giggle of excited anticipation in my chest. I’m in a happy, quiet place right now and it feels like dawn all day long.  

Jen